I just don't care anymore. I'm so tired of having to try to make people at work keep their word and stick to their responsibilities. Why is it my problem if they don't want to make any changes? It just drains my energy to work harder than they do at this. Even home life I don't care about anymore. If my boyfriend is going to work longer hours, so be it. What weight does my opinion have? None. And why would anybody care if I don't have the drive to keep myself and my apartment up. I don't. It's just not worth it. No matter how hard I try, no matter how much effort I put into something, it never matters anyway.