I dont know what to do PC.
I"m having extreme paranoia, horrible thoughts of bad things, sadness, anxiety, and just plain depression. My T is out of town until Wednesday so e-mail isn't even an option. I'm not feeling well at all. I'm not fitting in anywhere, at school, online, no where,...well I dont think so atleast,..its paranoia so it proabbly isn't true.

To make matters worse, today on the bus kids where passing drugs over me, I was in the middle. The girl taking them was , I don't know so innocent. Yet guilty. It was a horrible experience, and then we had a bomb threat on the school.

Those events should be the only thing that depress me but instead I have similar feelings daily. I feel lost, and my friends, online, on games that i've met , well I just kinda been, leaning on them I am afraid, that I"m looseing them even tho assure me there not going anywhere.

I'm in a complete frenzy, who's frantic ! I'm such a mess...I have my ACT test tomorrow too...its really early, and its 4 hours, I'm not even stressed about it, I'm so numb....so..alone, with millions of loved ones, giving me love.....

Pray..as I for you all!

Dustin