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You know that it isn't the answer. I've been having SUI thoughts recently too. They're bad enough that I've been having to take Ativan to get through the worst. I also feel like not seeing my T. I feel like nothing is going to fix this. But my T told me to just hang in there, that the thoughts will pass, they always have.

You probably need your Ts more right now than you did before. Talk to them. Tell them what's going on.

And by the way, art therapy isn't just about being creative. You can draw stick figures and still utilize art therapy. It's about expressing your thoughts and emotions via a different means than talking. You should go to therapy and draw out your SUI thoughts. Paint in all black. Have anger? Throw in some red. Or pain or depression.... Let it all out. Scream it on your canvas.