That sounds horrifying. I would talk with my pdoc to let him/her know what is going on. If you start to make suicidal plans, go to the nearest emergency room ASAP!!!! It sounds like you may need a med adjustment.
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...Out of night and alarm
Out of terrible dreams
Reach me your hand!
This is the meaning that we suffered in sleep:
The white peace of the waking.
~Edna St. Vincent Millay, "Song of the Nations"~
Diagnoses: Bipolar 2, OCD, Chronic Worrywart 
Meds: Lithium (reducing), Trileptal, Latuda, Risperdal, Klonopin and Xanax PRN
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