I know it will likely help him, but I can't help but to feel awful that someone who is normally so well collected and peaceful is verging on the edge of depression because of me. I'm supposed to bring happiness in a relationship, not...this. I used to be highly against meds as well, especially after an awful experience on saphris. But now I'm more open minded to the idea since I'm desperate and I know my brain chemicals are out of whack. Afterall, BPD is not *purely* environment. Our brains are wired differently. I think it could definitely be of benefit to get a BPD specialist regardless, simply because they're more equipped to handle our erratic emotions and behaviors. My last therapist couldn't handle me.