If ya noticed my absence I'm back. :-)

I found a job again, I'm stressed as s%#t, but I'm coping. Sort of. Well, not particularly well I suppose but it's survival. Work stresses me, my (lack of a) love life stresses me, etc. Actually it all tangles together. Here's how:

Work: I don't think I'm particularly good at what I do. I didn't train in the field I work in -- don't know if I'd be good if I had. I can't work my particular type of job forever (am expected to get into management or something eventually and people will quit hiring me eventually if I don't).

Love: I screwed up a relationship that should have lasted. I didn't appreciate or take care of it. I feel undeserving of any further chances in love since that's not even the first time I've screwed it up.

Friends: They all remind me of my ex-love. I hate to leave them, but I need a whole new group, a whole new environment, a whole new life.

Random: I keep wishing I could meet a stranger for a one-night stand or something. Never had a one-night stand in my life.

Guess this post isn't particularly related to therapy. Except in that if it weren't for therapy I doubt I'd have any chance at all of survival....

Sidony