In a way I know what your saying! `I mean` I now try to help the less well off than me or try and protect the vulnerable people from others`! I think I get this from being so selfish all those years` ago too the loved ones` that really matter too you!!
This is one small part of my illness (deep guilt) that effects` my everyday life now! (I guess its` the almighty god paying me back for my sins`) `I am so sorry god'

`If only If only` I could turn back the clock!!!!