I'm not an authority and can only speak to how I experience this disorder but here's my two cents...
Usually when I'm triggered I do not experience a memory, just a rush of feelings. I know where these feelings come from because I've spent time reflecting on events in my life and how they made me feel (thanks therapy). What I cannot say (because my trauma was ongoing) is that trigger A corresponds to memory B. I'm sure this is not the case for everyone but for me it's just not that specific (usually).
I know repressed memories occur but it sounds like you have a clear idea of what trauma existed in your past. Do you remember every single incident? Who knows. I'm sure I don't, I was a kid. Do you need to? This comment might get me in trouble here but I'm not sure you do. So long as you get to the core of it, you aren't leaving anything big or unique out, I think it's probably good enough. It would take me forever to catalogue every bad thing that ever happened to me. But what you do remember sounds bad enough and I'd highly recommend focusing on those events with a therapist.
Movies are tough but I can say I've been triggered by many a film, book, song, etc. They are hard because we can't control what we're going to see. In life we can avoid situations that would trigger us but watching tv, we can't tell that the next scene will have just the right imagery to push us over the edge. Heck, there's a scene in Rudolph The Red Nose Raindeer that triggers me every year so it can really be from anything (damn island of misfit toys).
So there ya go, my thoughts. I hope they are in some way helpful.
May you have peace and please be safe.
Cyran0
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Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD (childhood physical/sexual abuse), history of drug abuse.
Meds: Zoloft, Lorazapam, Coffee, Cigarettes
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