I am so sorry to hear this is happening to you. Divorce is very difficult and I imagine it's even worse when your spouse says the reason is your illness (something you don't have complete control over). Good job on staying away from self-medicating....it's best to keep a clear head. I know it doesn't feel like it now, but it will get easier in time. It will probably get harder before it gets easier....but eventually everything will even out. ((((Hugs to you and your kids)))