Hi, and thanks!

Yeah, my whole life is one big existential crisis! Probably as a result of too many books and philosophy classes But, I haven't pursued that avenue of study in years and perhaps it is time to.

The screen name describes something I really like about myself.. being fearless. But, I'm beginning to think my fearlessness just comes from not feeling much.... so it may not be such a good thing...

And there is something I want. A better world. But since that's out of the question, I need to find something more attainable.

I find myself getting angry at the total selfishness I see in others. From the way they drive, to how they treat others, to their work ethic, etc. I strive to live my life in a way that I believe is right, but don't see that much in others. Wants2Fly pointed out that I put a negative spin on things... bingo. But, those people who only see the positive, excluding reality, in my opinion, make me want to vomit. There is a lot of negative in the world and in others' behaviors. At times I do try to see the positive, but I always seem to get pulled back to the dark side!

So today I self prescribed a maximum dose of the Prozac. That's what my therapist would try first, so I'm going to give it a shot. I'll alternate that every few days with my regular dose and give that a few weeks. If there is no change, I'll call the therapist and start that up again...

Thanks again, everyone.