Look at that comment I first made about that teacher "a ***** who didn't deserve the right to teach". I'd say I made a judgment based on a series of bad experiences with that person. I am imperfect. Truth is, everyone judges, but it's when you allow your judgments to consume you and close your mind is when it becomes a problem. I'd be perfectly open to the idea that she got better and became a better teacher, but in that school year and in the moment she said what she did, I don't believe she was.
And yeah, I think a large part of our "judgment" of our abusers is just trying to understand how they could hurt us like they did. What brought my dad to say what he's said to me? What prompted my mom to hit me all of the time for a good portion of childhood? I'd call that sort of thing more like analysis for me, because I'm genuinely trying to understand why.