Hello Lnconeja: I'm sorry you are having so much difficulty. We here on PsychCentral cannot diagnose you. This is a job for a mental health professional... a psychiatrist or mental health therapist. Perhaps some other members, here on PC, may be able to share some similar experiences though. And this may help to shed some light on what you are experiencing.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!