I'm sorry that happened to you. That psychiatrist shouldn't be allowed to carry the title. You needed help and he not only neglected to give you that, but he also made it worse. I'm sorry for that. I hope that things are better at this other hospital and I hope that you get the help you need. I don't want you to hurt yourself, if you can help it. You don't deserve to hurt in any way.
I'll be thinking about you. Keep me updated.