I can only wish there was something subtle about my negative self-talk. It's exhausting. Fighting it is something I have to work on continuously. If I stop, I become a big pile of self-loathing. It ain't pretty.

I know it is based in parental abandonment issues, and most recently in a reinactment of that same abandonment by my former therapist. Major bummer. Funny how history repeats itself, ehh? Ok, not funny ha ha. Funny odd. Funny crappy actually.

What helps me deal with the negative self-talk are CBT concepts, and that book Feeling Good by David Burns. What does NOT help are drinking wine and crying. I've tried both.

emmy