That's the worst part, isn't it? This **** that goes on in your head while you sleep and even while you're wide awake; it's not just a nightmare. It's real, it really happened and it happens to a lot of other people. It could happen again. This terrible, horrific side of human nature is real. Worse, it's become normal.
They don't know what goes on inside my head, all of the damn time. If they did, they wouldn't care. I know one of them, in particular who would be proud of what he did. He'd smile and say that he'd do it again, and again.

God damn it! Why can't this **** get out of my head? I don't want to relive this ****, I don't want to see it anymore! I'm sick of seeing it, feeling it, over and over! It never ****ing stops!

I just want it to stop.