I know you can do it. I have been hospitalized 5 times with my longest being a year in a state hospital. I know you feel like giving up, I did too and I tried ,which made my stay longer. You can do this, you will have to fight. I have peers that say the same thing and I tell them to fight through the hopelessness, the numbness, the negative self talk and voices. You are needed here, you are valuable. People with MI, trauma and abuse need you to let them know they are not alone and they can get passed all this. Message me if you want to talk, I will try to reply as quickly as possible. Much love and peace.