Dear Eden1515,
Are things any better today? Where you able to take your medicine? I understand why things are hard, you mental illness is making everything harder. I am proud of you for trying. If you haven't taken your medicine, tell the doctor. The injections will be OK. I think Bizi is right. If you have a kind friend, tell them that you were hospitalized. When I talk or write about troubling things, I worry about them less later. So please keep posting. Myst