I had to quit half of my subject at college. I had 7 this semester, 3 from the second year and 4 from the third year.

This is my third year at college but I still have subjects from the second one since I missed the final examns because I was having a psychotic break.

I can't handle this much, I was doing like a year and half in one to the point I was having lessons from 9 to 14 and lab practices from 15 to 19, extra English course on Monday and two sports on Tuesday and Wednesday from 19 to 21 to get more credits, and then one or two tests every week, and the red croix courses on weekends from 9 to 14.

It was a lot and I would have been able to do it if I didn't have any kind of mental problem.

I didn't want to repeat an academical year because of the psychotic break I had while the final examns of the second year, this is why I was doing this much.

But now...

Yeah, I am repeating a year, I am doing the second year while I should be doing on my third one.

I feel like a failure....

I hate psychotic-dissociative crisis... whatever, I had one last week that triggered a psychotic-I-don't-know-what, or that's what my psychiatrist said, at least. Now entities are stronger, my mind gets tired after the most easy task, by brain can't handle stress anymore, I can't continue with college without repeating a course... I feel so done. I tried to forget about disorders and other **** but it just doesn't work this way.

I am studying a degree in Pharmacy, bah.

Crazy, inside and aside

"Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a
thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance."
I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison-