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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
No more ODing, no more SH. I'm out.
Had to move his precious record collection because he left it on the sofa and didn't move it.
I probably broke a good many of them. Slammed them against the wall, kicked them. He cared about them more than he did me. They aren't even valuable records!
So much anger.
Hoping by destroying his stuff he'll want to end it, too.
He'll surely use it against me, say I have BPD. It was a bit Glenn Close, I must say. And it felt so GOOD.
I'll admit I did it. I'm not proud, but I'm not sorry. How can it compare to the pain I am in physically, mentally, spiritually- I am completely broken.
Pure hatred.
Now it's time to curtsy and exit this marriage.
Not sure if I should go with him to the marriage counselor tonight for our emergency appointment.
Did I do a stupid thing that they can use against me?
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Yes, I can relate... My wife has 30 years of crap piled up around the house and keeps bringing in more! Whenever I try to talk about it she says something like "Oh, not this again"! The other day I told her that one day she was going to have to choose between me and her s_it, she told me "I'm sorry that's how you feel about our relationship"!
I've been known to throw things, but I try to go away from people and only throw stuff I (probably) can't destroy... It DOES feel good!
If your partner can't put you first, it's just a matter of time... But you have to do the same. It's hard to do when there are so many bad feelings, but that's the only way a marriage works.