Ugh. Just made a reply then lost signal and lost it. And naturally I can't remember it well enough but I will try again...

It's hard to know what kind of job would suit me better. I actually wanted this job, I thought it would suit me, part time in a shop I like. I think I'm probably putting too much pressure on myself to make it work.

I have tried various jobs over the years, a pizza place, a small shop, an accountancy firm and they all seemed to end badly. As far as studying goes, I'm not even sure what I would be interested in enough to study. I know it's an option if I change my mind though.

I'm trying to perservere and not throw in the towel so soon. It's hard though. And I'm concerned I might end up doing something stupid because of this. I'm trying to stay strong, I'm just not sure how long that strength will last.