Your first sentence was good; you are slowly getting use to it. It will take time to get use to new routines of doing things and realizing the people don't care less, the clinic is just a bit bigger perhaps or less organized, external things?

When I'm having trouble in a new situation or feeling lonely or in need of support I often think of two "stories"/examples I've read in the far distant past.

One is about how babies have to learn to soothe themselves to sleep and that is difficult and takes their crying, etc. for a bit until they figure out how to maneuver from wakefulness to sleep. http://www.urbanext.uiuc.edu/baby/sleep_all_night.html

While the baby is learning it it isn't comfortable for them or their caretakers and the baby can't "see" or know what is happening like his parents can, is just part of the process. In some situations I figure I just have to be that baby and work with or endure what's going on with me at the moment and try to know I will come out okay, stronger for having had the experience and successfully maneuvered through it (even if I can't "see" it yet because I'm in it and not far enough along to be able to put it into words).

The other example is of a child learning to walk. It takes a lot of falling down to learn to walk. Parents (or their babies) don't decide after the baby falls a couple times, "Okay, that's enough, you can't walk and your falling down is hurting me." They have to keep trying to walk, even though they keep falling down. When something bothers me continuously or I keep "falling down" I am encouraged to try "harder" if I know it is something good for me or that I want by the example of learning to walk (or ride a bicycle, etc.). Maybe you can look at it taking a bit longer for them to get back in touch with you in that way? You've fallen down while learning to walk, you're really okay and in a moment they'll come along and pick you up again and put you on your feet near the coffee table where you can hold on and bounce up and down with those new knees and get ready to try again :-)