Hi jean, I'm from Canada too and i do know how much weather can worsen things. I used to have a garden and even then our season shortens the time we can spend in it. Good suggestions already up there.. do you have any space indoors for some plants and maybe flowers to brighten things? wish there was a simple way to make friends but i don't know how either so i spend more time on here to lessen the feelings of loneliness. I don't think you should blame yourself, it's really difficult to find friends.