My first therapist 8 years ago told me I was in love with him. He was the first person I felt like I'd truly opened up to. It wrecked me for therapy. Even though I've been in therapy ever since then with different therapists, he left long-lasting damage. Now, 8 YEARS LATER, I'm doing EMDR with my current therapist to try to get over the damage of my first therapist because it's STILL affecting me. It made me unable to be totally open. It made me worry so much about how I was coming across that I kept all the most intense stuff inside and just dealt in therapy with more surface stuff.

It makes me cry sometimes that someone who was supposed to help did so much damage.

I feel ya, Out There.