I like my p-doc. He's laid back and sort of follows where I take him. He doesn't push anything on me. He simply listens and goes from there. Right now, I'm sort of in "maintenance" mode in his eyes but lately, I've been falling apart so our next appointment should be interesting.

I'm not sure I'm going to be up front with him......most of my collapse is probably my fault. I don't meditate enough and my routine is a disaster right now. There are a lot of things he can't fix so I need to get after it and correct it myself. In some ways, I get the impression he's sort of waiting for me to poach......he has the experience with all of this so I'm sure he's seen this before. Most of what he'll probably tell me will center around reassurance and reinforcement.

And, after all, isn't that the core issue with BP? We work hard to get to a certain point, let our guard down to some degree, and regress back to Square One. And then we go through the cycle again and again. We all want it to go away but it probably never will. It will be a life of struggle.