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I think I want to get away from everyone except my T and those to whom I'm blood-related. I just want to reinvent my life and try to forget the past
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yeah I feel that way too, only I don't even include relatives
Not going says you choose to not go. That can be any number of reasons...perhaps you were invited somewhere else that was more what you wanted to do, for example.
I had a T a long time ago who taught me to say "I have other plans" when I chose to not do something for whatever reason. I said, but I don't have other plans! He said your other plans... are to not go. I never thought of it that way.
You've had a really hard time with being laid off (((( sidony ))) and ending a relationship. It takes time to work through the loss(es) and change(s).
I think possibly the party and the ex going to be there have stirred things up that may have started to settle down a bit when you found your job and maybe began feeling back on track?
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