yes it may be fun, yes it make you feel happy, and yes, if used correctly, magic can be fun.

but, trust me when I say this, you're not magic

you're not a fairy, you're not an elf, you're not a witch. you're eden.

it's bad because you are Ill, and sometimes, when you are ill, and you don't take the medication, things like this happen.

ask yourself if you've always believed in magic and spirits

then ask yourself how you used to feel

it may help you understand.