I thought I'd replace whichever records I broke on ebay if I can and not tell him what I did. So now, the stupid records I have resented taking up space and never being used, I have to spend money on to replace.

In all the time I know him, he never listened to the records. Some of them were mine, too. I've been begging him to get rid of them because they are just clutter. My sister sells collectible media. I begged him to give them to her. He wouldn't hear of it.

So yeah, I took my anger toward him about our relationship out on the records.

But, I decided to not let on about my 'explosion' and cause a scene.

We went to the t appt.

I asked my h to talk first and explain how we have more miscommunication and dysfunction this week.

For some reason, my h told the t about me on here. He said "she goes on this psych website and gives people really good advice" huh? Isn't that a weird thing to even say? Why did he go and rat me out to the t?

Then I had to explain myself. I told the t about how I came on to figure out what is going on with me and to see how other people with illness/disorders think and see if I am similar. Yes, I talk with others about their issues, but I posted over 2000 posts and let it all out all about myself and it felt good to do that.

The t said he did not like hearing that I am on here at all, and being a cognitive behavior t, he explained about why psychotherapy is not helpful, rather it is harmful.

He said nothing in my past matters, only changing right now.

I feel untrusting about how my h told the t about me on here. Why did he do that? I am suspicious about his motives.

But i told the t, "So what? So I posted my little heart out? It made me feel a little better."

If the t wants to come on here, figure out who I am, and read my posts, God bless. It's less time that I need to spend retelling him all these things myself. Besides, he doesn't want to hear it because he is only about changing behaviors now.