So yesterday I had a date planned with my spouse. I was all excited about it. Planning on snagging a concert tickets I have wanted for 15+ years but was never able to go. That coupled with not having said funds, and drinking a Rockstar Vodka before I was to get ready for the date with my spouse...

I was giddy, impatient and angry when confronted about my decisions. I flew off the handle and went rogue ("I've wanted this my whole life. How dare you question my decision to allocate funds from bills to pay for this concert, and I'm not a nun I can have one drink!")

...didn't go over well. I guess I was on a high and agitated all day. I ended the day sobbing, apologizing and feeling upset.

*sigh*

I've been taking my meds regularly so I guess I wasn't anticipating any bad decisions. I'm lucky, my counselor is so good. She's been teaching me how to try to recognize signs and symptoms and I've been educating myself on mental health since being diagnosed.

This is a really frustrating disorder.