I feel the same as you. I missed 3 of my son's solver games because I couldn't get out of bed. Luckily, my husband and daughter were able to go. He did ask why I am in bed all the time. I felt so horrible. I explained that sometimes I just get so tired. I can't hide the depression now that he is older. I try so hard to hide it from him and my family. Its exhausting. I did say that depression is an illness and that I am getting help. I try every day.