I was just telling my husband yesterday that I am defective. So I can relate to feeling broken. I think many of us feel that way. We can still choose to enjoy parts of life that we can. We might be broken, but we are still alive.

I am impressed by all that you are doing to get the healthcare that you need. It sounds like you are doing all that you can and your very best to move forward. Maybe it is not working as fast as you want it to, but don't give up, okay? And just keep sticking with the treatment that you are able to get. Some people are out on the street with no doctors or meds. I don't say that to make you feel guilty. I just mean that we are lucky for what we do get, even if it is less than ideal. Sometimes we are on our own with bipolar, but we do still have each other here at the forums.