honestly, i'm about ready to kill someone right now. i'm so annoyed with people. last week i had a boyfriend, and last nite he decided to leave b/c he says he didn't know me too well and went into a new relationship too fast. i'd just like to thank him for doing it over the phone (sarcasm, can you tell?) so he tells me on the phone "i'm sorry, i'm sorry" yeah, i'm sure you are. he says don't do anything stupid, so what do i do? as soon as every one in the house was asleep, i get up and cut the crap out of my legs. every scar i saw i wanted it to bleed again and i wasn't happy with just that, i kept going until i could breathe again and i stopped crying. i was so scared b/c it didn't stop bleeding, it wasn't that i was afraid to die, i just didn't need to make a mess about it.

so here i am, about 12 hours later and wondering why i'm still trying at anything. i really want to talk to someone in 3D, i'm just too scared to go to anyone that could help. i don't want to be in the hospital, i just don't want to feel like this anymore. my cuts are still bleeding, just not so much anymore and i just want to strangle this guy. i don't have any friends anyway.

sorry guys, this is just a waste of your time, b/c that's all i am to this world.
one big waste of time energy and space