My grandmother had an accent wall of floor to ceiling mirrors. It was used to create more light in the small space. Your story really breaks my heart. I'm sorry about your mom and lingering scars and pain. I can look in mirrors in my house, but not mirrors outside my house. If I use the public restroom, when washing my hands there is always a mirror above the sink and I cannot look into it. If I catch a glimpse, the image is a distorted version of what I see at home and it makes my anxiety skyrocket because I feel I look unacceptable. In school there was always a large mirror in the girls bathroom where groups of girls would gather together to fix themselves up after gym or whatever....I envied them for feeling comfortable but would have been horrified to be seen with them in that mirror....I would have been horrified if someone observed me look in the mirror for even a second. So in some small way, I do think I relate. I'm sorry you struggle with this. It would be nice if we all felt comfortable in our skin and with our reflections. (((Hugs)))