I'm having obsessive suicidal and self-harm thoughts, to the point where my fiancee is hiding my meds from me. On TV last night I saw various suicide methods depicted and all I could feel was intense interest. Right now it feels inevitable and I'm just delaying.

At what point is this too much? I'm still at the point where I don't want to hurt other people or fail to follow through on my responsibilities. But the urges are so strong too... how long will I care?

How did you know the suicidal ideation was too much?