Like skeez, my attempts were spur of the moment with no pre-planning as well. So I'm always confused about going to the hospital. If I went everytime I had SI, I'd live there and I hardly think that is my best option. I was told by my doctor that my SI might always be present in some way.

So with all that said, I have a very difficult time saying when it's time for someone to go to the hospital with SI. When I start having the methods and likelihood of success flash through my head on loop, my husband takes control of all meds or pills of might use and I warn him I'm having bad thoughts. Well actually, sometimes I tell him, sometimes I have delusions which keep me from talking.

I would probably recommend you at least tell a doctor about this ASAP. It's always best to error on the side of caution right? This is about something very important ....it's about your life. Best to take this very seriously if it feels out of the norm....and since you felt compelled to write about it here....I'd say it's probably urgent. Call someone right away. Stay safe.