Yes I feel different from everyone else it seems, not just because of BP, but because (now that I'm allowed to believe the DX again), I have an autism spectrum disorder (Aspergers type), my Mom and case manager don't believe that DX even though I've been tested and dx'ed with it (just waiting to have my records pulled out of the archive at the place I was seen at, which might take awhile, so I can prove that I do have it). But I do and have always been and felt different from other people, no irl friends, extremely socially awkward, among other issues. Some is relates to BP though, some related to ASD, so I'm just one awkward mess.