So I keep wanting to call T and leave him a message. That starting tomorrow I'm rewriting my life and that part of that is ditching group therapy (since it makes me miserable a lot of the time) and basically ditching most of my friends. I think all the Halloween crap I mentioned in my other posts is the last straw. And I'm done. Cooked. Golden. Etc. And that option 2 is to beat my head into the wall -- I figure that option will exacerbate the headache I've had (I don't recommend taking 2 ambien while intoxicated -- this does not provide good sleep).

But I might just be wigging out and using the whole straw thing to get attention from him. And maybe that's what I need. I do feel like I'm done though. Finished. I need everything to change completely. Financially I can't move right now so the geographic cure isn't a good option.....

Sidony (wigging out)