It's not, but it'll pan out for us in the long run, I think. I sorry that you've been through what you have. I think that you've sacrificed so much and deserved to finally have someone who helps you. It's your turn to be taken care of, and I don't mean that in any insulting manner. Haha, my uncle used to hate it when I'd say that to him; he was SEAL and he never really left the fight, let alone the mindset. Anyway, go easy on yourself. I'm always here if you need to talk.