For a good few months I felt like I had my life back on track, had been feeling positive, could find things to look forward to. I've felt for a few weeks that things were changing slightly and I've been trying my best to fight it.

Today I feel so angry and hopeless. I feel like my friends are using me, I'm working hard at work to cover for people who shouldn't be off work but are, I have no money and am worried about Christmas and I just feel like I'm carrying a huge weight on my shoulders.

I got a notebook last year when I was feeling at my worst and wrote my feelings down. I'm doing the same again now to try and get everything out but it's not helping. I hate this feeling of anger and my mind is working against me. I'd forgotten how bad this feeling was. I'm hoping I can work through it better this time.