I am so glad to see you back.
I was sort of hoping you'd coming back raving about your job, saying that the reason you haven't been on is because you have been so busy working and loving it.
I'm so sorry that you are still going through such a hard time.
What is stopping you from calling T? Are you afraid of his reaction when you tell him you want to stop group? That he will persuade you to stay?
You know what? It's okay to do things for attention. We all need attention.