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Originally Posted by ScientiaOmnisEst
I don't have any kind of PD, but this was recently replied to and on the main boards, and caught my attention.
I've had a guilt complex for a good portion for a good portion of my life. Major mistakes made in recent years have amplified it to the point of tears and SI trying to cope with it....but even as a kid, I often felt like I needed to hide everything I did, always felt like I was doing something wrong. My mother thinks it's because I never did my homework and barely did any schoolwork, and felt bad about getting good grades without working hard, and the guilt spread elsewhere. I think that's an insultingly simplified explanation, but I don't know where it came from.
So: where does yours come from? What specific things make you think "I'm a bad person"? You don't have to write them here, but see if you can find them. They could tell you something.
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That's just it. I don't know. It's affecting my personal life so much, but I can't stop it and note I'm just self defeating. I'm convinced I'm bad. Then I do bad things...and I convince myself that I did it because I'm just a bad person. I'm so so tired. I'm having really bad thoughts because of it.