I'm trying to, but it is going to take a lot. I feel tired and worn out. I realized a bit late that I used so much energy helping others. I've had some family member's tell me I'm too prideful and stubborn to ask for help. I don't talk to them much because they don't understand that it's not pride or being stubborn, it's self worth and I feel selfish if I ask for anything. For too long I've believed that my purpose is to help others. Now that I see helping others doesn't make me happy and only gets me used, I'm stuck wondering what my purpose really is. Being alone stinks, but not understanding why I am here makes it worse.