he does admit it sometimes. hes usually the first one to say "its all my fault" but i think sometimes it more of a defense mechanism rather than an honest statement.

i asked him again last night about couples counseling and he said hell do whatever it takes to make us better. he said he wants to work on it and he knows what he would be missing if i werent here.

he said that he needed me to do something drastic like threaten to move out or leave him before it really hit home what it would be like without me.

and i know i might sound naive but i have been through this with other guys like my ex and he used to abuse me so that was even worse.

our lease is up at the end of june so that is like a perfect time frame to figure things out. if things arent better by then were going our separate ways. and i even said well you have me depending on your income so youre just going to throw me out on my *** not giving me any time to work and save up money (i go to school full time) and he said that even if we did break up he would help me out while i dont have time to work. im not sure how much i believe that but well see....

thanks for listening you guys.