Over the past year I have lost my ability to control my excesses.
I have gained 20 pounds by over indulging in food and alcohol.
We have spent a lot of money on food, buying organics and grass fed beef and eating out way too much.
My husband and I both work full time and it is easier going out to eat.
We don't have any children but spend too much money on food costs.
We have never had a budget before and I think we would be shocked at how much money we spend on food and liquor. He drinks as well but not like I do.
I have started sneaking drinking....stopping buy whole foods bar and having a beer with out hubby knowing about it. This is risk taking behavior. If I got caught drinking and driving I would lose my license, I am a home care nurse.
I have gotten lazy.
I don't clean my house any more neither does hubby. I used to but resent it that he did not help. so now I don't clean it either. Same thing with our yard....
Another area of concern is my internet usage.
I spend hours on line checking from forums to facebook to yahoo back to forums etc. I am like addicted to the internet, always looking for responses etc.
I don't have racing thoughts nor pressured speech. My meds have been the same this year last year we tried changing things up and that was a disaster.
I am not a shopper nor gambler.
Am sleeping.
I am married but I don't have a sex life.
I am keeping up with my paper work, am self employed.
Have not been sick, working on the weekends when I need to.
I don't have a therapist...I know that I need therapy but will wait until we have better insurance come this january.
I think that I am undermedicated but am afraid to change my meds.
any input thoughts advice , I would appreciate your feed back.
thanks
bizi