suicide is the most cruel and selfish act any person could ever do. you're chidren will be affected in a way you could never imagine and there are other people in the world that love and or care about you that would also be affected. your death by your own hand would ruin your chidren, no matter how how they were, for the worst.

it coud and most likely would emotionally destroy them.

when i feel like i want to end it all, i just think about what it would do to my spouse - number three who i want to divorce every day and he drives me crazy, but it's been 23 years and he wont go away -- my best friend, Nancie of 33 years and her grown kids who are my godchidren, their father, Nancie's boyfriend -- my other best friend Val and her two daughters -- my three sisters who are cruel to me and i've estranged from them and alone with out my parent who died recently, who especially the little sister would literally die from broken hearts -- and many others who i barely see and think aren't good people, who do, will be hurt.

you matter, like all the other people have said and Rose hit it on the head when she said your ex wasn't wife material. i think you need to find a therapistthat specializes in codependency. it will really help you. you are worth everything and yu should find out out special and deserving yu are of many things. yu will meet another woman. as soon as you get your head straight.

stay strong....courage!!!