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Old Oct 17, 2016, 07:37 AM
Princetonstyle Princetonstyle is offline
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First, I just want to say that I'm brand new to these boards and so grateful to everyone here who has so openly shared their experiences. I've been with my T for nearly a year (my first time ever in therapy), and strong attachment feelings for her have come out of nowhere in the last couple of sessions. I guess it feels like a strong level of maternal transference? It surprised me a lot, because I never felt any dependence AT ALL before this and I'm now struggling with new feelings of anxiety and longing to see her between sessions. We are on a schedule of one session every two weeks (which she indicated won't change), but I now seem to be going through a cycle of affection for her (in the first week after the session) and then strong anger/resentment (in the second week after). I admitted some level of how I was feeling in our last session, but I feel like she's useless at helping me process these strong feelings with such long intervals between sessions. The distance between us that grows while I'm away from her for what feels like such a long period of time, just seems to further my attachment/abandonment/rejection fears. This is why I hate attaching to people. My question is, does every two weeks sound healthy for someone with my issue? Or does transference require more time together to work things out? I feel like I am forcing away all of my attachment to her over the time between our sessions and we are therefore losing the chance to explore this because it makes me want to close back up and not trust her anymore. I never ever contact her between sessions, as I'm fearful of her rejection and don't feel like she would be open to it unless it was an emergency. To her credit, we do have an amazing connection and the less dependent/needy version of me likes her a lot. This is driving me nuts. Sorry for the long post. I do hope this made sense.
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