Hey, @AeonycRiot,

I see nothing wrong in your story... I see no reason for you to feel bad about yourself...
Maybe, just to ease your thoughts you should talk to your cousin.

But what I think is this:
We've all arrived to this life and have many discoveries to do. And we do them... We discover our bodies, we discover love, we discover pain...
We're also often taught to be ashamed of us, of our feelings and of our body.... That's too bad.
We've all been children before... We've all made our discoveries one way or another.

I hope you clear it out and ease your mind about this time of your life..
Cheers