I am totally confused at the moment. I have started obsessing about someone who I haven't had contact with for over 33 years. They are now very succesful and high profile in the local business community and I came accross a video of them online recently and it opened up my memory banks and released immense sadness about the relationship ending very suddenly.

I have had an overwhelming urge to contact them but really fear being rejected again after all this time. I know I should leave well enough alone but I am totally confused as to why this person is in my head now after all this time.

I know that this is wierd and probaly unhealthy but I seem to actually want to replace our last encounter with a more positive one.

I know I am in a vulnerable place right now as my mother passed away in July aged 92 after I had cared for her through the last years of her life with dementia.

Very, very confused.

Kezzie