I never talk about this...but I haven't had sex in 7 years, and it doesn't bother me. My last partner was a woman, but I'm not a lesbian, just pansexual. For a multitude of reasons, I haven't committed myself to a relationship since her. I was pretty heartbroken. Kind of closed up inside. I've tried dating, but as soon as things got serious or sexual I'd run the other direction. She didn't sexually abuse me at all. But I was molested when I was a child and sexually abused by my first bf. So feelings of arousal around men terrify me. I could never cross the bridge with a guy, and I really like men. I'm simply terrified of being sexual with them. Afraid my PTSD will turn me violent, or that I'll have a panic attack and feel victimized again. Or relive what happened.

But I'd like to have a bf and be able to fulfill the sexual obligations or whatever, that are involved in a relationship. I'm not sex crazed, or anything. I have a nearly non-existent libido. I don't know what to do with sexual feelings because they are so rare with me. But if I get involved with someone, I'd like to be a decent gf. So how do I overcome these fears involving men? Mainly because, I have a guy into me and I'm debating on becoming involved with him.

I'm not a virgin....but I am a virgin, to some extent. I haven't really kissed or made out with anyone in 7 years either and I'm not even sure what to do in a situation where kissing happens.