I need some help, particularly from those of you who have known me for a while. T has been frustrated with me because I don't seem to make progress. That's nothing new, but I'm wondering now if it really is that I don't make progress or maybe that I don't report progress or maybe I'm not even aware of it. I do know that I've come a long way since the bad year I had in 2003, when I found this community. A couple of the big ones are that I haven't been suicidal now for one year, and haven't cut in about six months. In 2003 those things were pretty intense multiple times. I met my current T in 2004, so I was already starting to change by then. I had started back to school to finish my bachelor's degree. When I started therapy with her, I also went back to work after being a SAHM for 8 years, and having been told by a previous therapist and voc rehab that I couldn't work with people due to social anxiety.

I still have things to work on. I don't focus well sometimes (I lose the point when I feel like someone is picking on me), I often don't communicate well. I say one thing and take it back and change my mind later, or I forget to include an important detail, or I hide what I'm really saying in too much irrelevant junk. I listen to criticism, but tune it out if it gets to be more than I'm comfortable with. I'm more confident than I was, but still afraid of being wrong.

I would really appreciate it if any of you can tell me specific ways that I have changed, as well as specific areas where I still need work.

Thanks for the help! I'm not looking for flattery here, but honest, straight feedback.

Rap