After months of blaming me for everything and saying that he's "tried so hard to do what I want" (Without actually doing anything) He's starting to try.

We almost broke up, but I couldn't get the words out. I hate being the bad guy and he knows this, so he makes himself the helpless victim. However, this time I didn't say "okay," this time I didn't say "I'll give you another chance" or "let's try again." I finally realized that I've been trying the entire time, and he's just beginning to.

The problem with him trying to be better now? I'm tired. I've put up with all of the manipulation and making me feel like garbage, like it's all my fault. I'm tired of doing what he says he'd like me to do, just to have him get mad because I changed. I'm tired of having tried for 6 months.

I don't react to anything he does anymore. He decided to be romantic one day, but my emotions were already burned out. It makes me feel like he's only doing it so he can justify that I "have" to sleep with him.

The sad part is, I feel bad. I feel bad that he's trying so hard now and I can't even react, not even when I try to force myself.

I have to decide, should I stay or should I go. But I'm so scared.